Still Hurting......

What should i say more??? Yup, he left me....... Truly to say, i still can't let go. Many advices through my head... i know what you guys wanted to say and this is all my words to you guys when u guys having the same problem.I know and i understand but my heart dun let me to forget this person. 
 There is many things we do and we dont know why we do them! like lying to the one you really care about and didnt plan to loose. It seems like only yesterday when i had you in my arms now your gone with someone new, and it hurts to know that i lost you forever! if only i can tell you how much i love and how much i wanna have you in my arms once more! but thats something i can never do cuz i would not want to hurt myself again. I took you for granted and now i have to live with it. I cry myself to sleep everynight thinking of what could of been, and it hurts when i think that im never gonna find out. All i can say is that im sorry and i wish you the best but when i say that im wishing you the best it kills me inside cuz what im really wishing for is to have you once more!!!
I never thought, loving me is hard for you. I know what will happen if i'm with you but i'm still go for it. I told myself, i wont mind anything as long as i had the memories with you even a lil' while but i'm greedy. I wish to be with you forever!!!! I know there's impossible and difficulties coz of difference races..... I know you want freedom!!!!! Didn't i give you the freedom enough????? Can someone really tell me what he thinking about???? I really can't differentiate who is telling me truth and lie anymore...... My mind just become blank. 
How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart? What am i gonna do now??
2 weeks already passes and it's still hurt me. You might not want to have any relationship and we might even bcome a stranger but you can't stop me for loving you. There's nothing that i can do to get you back, so what i can do is loving you in secretly until i really can let down. I know is gonna hurt but is better than force myself to letting you go and force myself to forget you. This makes me more suffer and cry more. 
Being with you for past few months, there's some moments i will not forget. But, the most unforgettable and i most happy in our relationship is the day u telling me "i love you" on the phone. That is the moment i could ever forget. Really wanted to tell u how much i miss you and love you now but i know i can't........... When am i gonna to let down?????