Still Hurting......

What should i say more??? Yup, he left me....... Truly to say, i still can't let go. Many advices through my head... i know what you guys wanted to say and this is all my words to you guys when u guys having the same problem.I know and i understand but my heart dun let me to forget this person. 
 There is many things we do and we dont know why we do them! like lying to the one you really care about and didnt plan to loose. It seems like only yesterday when i had you in my arms now your gone with someone new, and it hurts to know that i lost you forever! if only i can tell you how much i love and how much i wanna have you in my arms once more! but thats something i can never do cuz i would not want to hurt myself again. I took you for granted and now i have to live with it. I cry myself to sleep everynight thinking of what could of been, and it hurts when i think that im never gonna find out. All i can say is that im sorry and i wish you the best but when i say that im wishing you the best it kills me inside cuz what im really wishing for is to have you once more!!!
I never thought, loving me is hard for you. I know what will happen if i'm with you but i'm still go for it. I told myself, i wont mind anything as long as i had the memories with you even a lil' while but i'm greedy. I wish to be with you forever!!!! I know there's impossible and difficulties coz of difference races..... I know you want freedom!!!!! Didn't i give you the freedom enough????? Can someone really tell me what he thinking about???? I really can't differentiate who is telling me truth and lie anymore...... My mind just become blank. 
How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart? What am i gonna do now??
2 weeks already passes and it's still hurt me. You might not want to have any relationship and we might even bcome a stranger but you can't stop me for loving you. There's nothing that i can do to get you back, so what i can do is loving you in secretly until i really can let down. I know is gonna hurt but is better than force myself to letting you go and force myself to forget you. This makes me more suffer and cry more. 
Being with you for past few months, there's some moments i will not forget. But, the most unforgettable and i most happy in our relationship is the day u telling me "i love you" on the phone. That is the moment i could ever forget. Really wanted to tell u how much i miss you and love you now but i know i can't........... When am i gonna to let down?????

Birthday bash of ^^Ji muizz^^

So called ji muiz for more than 10 years. We been friend since primary school. Going thru a lot of things together, happy or sadness. And we still here together and this is what we called a true friend. We have our own life, own boyfriend, those who married got their own family and everyone of us had our own career. Things might be changes a bit, not as close as last time but there is still something brings us back together.
Last week, we do have enjoying conversation and friend's back from singapore- LENG WEI. We've been celebrating yin li's birthday and going to fun fair after tat. Still, we play like a 'lil kids. There's is the moment i do happy and forget everything. And not to forget recently celebrating ping siang birthday  .......
We getting older and older and things we face getting more and more. So, hope the happiness will never get away from us. Here are some pictures is the moment we laughing at, and i could not ever forget. Even past for 4 years, i will be still laughing and thinking back at the moment  :)

Happy Birtday my dear... ♥

Someone being so naughty when i taking picture..... hmmm......

me ♥ ping siang

a great moment wif u guys  :)

lovess..... ♥

more and more  :)

welcome back...  :)

play like a "lil kids......

Another birthday girl ♥

At frenz cafe....

Location: IpoH

Still hoping that everyone of us getting better and better each day. Hope everyone of us getting the hapiness that we wish for. And do really hope our friendship will stay longer. Love u guys......... muackssssssss ♥

An unexpected gift (@_@) ♥ ♥

Last few days, i received  an unexpected gift from him. What i happy is not that what gift he giving me but the heart that thinking of me. Until now, i'm not really 100% sure what he is thinking but i really glad. He started to show he care, get an unexpected call from him, unexpected words for him, unexpected dinner with him and a lot unexpected thing that he never done before.
I knew he not always be the same. Sometimes may be cold to me, left me alone, not care about me but recently i notice that he knew about me just do not want to say it out. I really wish i'm special for him and i'm the one who always in his mind. This is really what i hope for. 
I really wanted to tell him,when he say "I love you", the world stops for a moment, the stars stop shining, the moon stops glowing, the earth stops breathing, all that's alive is our love ... I was so surprise coz all been a while he never mention this word to me but when he said that, i'm stunt for a while. This words is the biggest present from him. 
Thank you for everything. I don't need any other things from you but just your love. It would be great and more than everything. I know you've been busy and no time for me coz i know is your time now. Wishing you had lots winner in your race and i can see that you really a good jockey. I told you before, the way ur serious look is really attract me. Even though your appearance look like never serious but i know you actually you are serious with your career. I can really sees that you like your job so much. I feel proud of you.
To love you is like nothing I've ever felt before, a feeling like I'll melt every time you're around me. I do not know it will last how long but i really so appreciate now. Thanks for the gift ♥~~~ So sweet of you  :)