The Courage !!!!

Letting go of someone you love is never easy. The truth of it is, once any bond is made it's hard to break that bond. Just like welding, when two things are bonded together, to get them apart something has to be broken. When people bond they bond at their heart, so unfortunately, when you break a bond you're heart is where the bond has to be broken, thus the pain of heartbreak. There are so many times in life when you have to let go of someone you love, but that doesn't mean letting go of love.
It almost been a year and i still can't let go. I've question myself many times. What is going on with me?? There's a guy who very care and concern me but why do my heart still keep holding to the past? It is so hurt to face reality that i have to keep going on without you at my side. 
The most painful experience in life is to let go of someone you love. Everybody has somebody whom they love unconditionally. To create this bond, a strong relationship is created from very early years.
LOVE - What exactly is LOVE? How am I supposed to let go of someone I love, if I'm not even sure what love is? As for letting it go, well, I'm not sure I've ever had hold of it in the first place. What is love anyway? You see I thought love was my friend. I thought it was, no, IS, my BEST FRIEND.
INSECURITY - It's one of the most terrifying emotions in existence. I know what insecurity feels like, and I've no doubt what so ever, ,I have it. Is it a disease? Perhaps it's a bacterial infection, and by simply taking some sort of antibiotic, it will just, go away. Then again, maybe it won't. What I do know is; I don't trust love. Trust must be missing. I suppose I need to let go of love, because they say, "If you LOVE, let love go. If love comes back to you, it's yours. If love does not return, it was never yours to begin with.
Ending a relationship is hard to do, no matter what the relationship your ending entailed. Sometimes even quitting a job that you hate can be hard, if you like the people you work with. It isn't so much the relationship ending that is the hard part, it is usually the change that comes from ending a relationship that is what is hard. The routine that you establish during a relationship can become comforting, and gives you a sense of normalcy. When that sense of normalcy is broken, it can feel like life itself is strange, and you scramble for that sense of normal to come back.
I still missing our old times. I'm not dare to step forward cause i know every moment, every thing i do is remind me of you. I'm lost. I actually don't know what love meaning to me. If i be able to know i'm sure i won't be so suffering. I know is my fault and i'm also know that we cannot turn back time. I really wish we can turn back to normal but what i can do now is let God arrange everything. What i wanted to do is run away from tis place. Is too much memory about me and you. I really wanted to run away !!!!

My Off Day !!^^

It's Sunday and is my off day !!!! Trying to get my ass out from my bed.Me and my bestie Queenie been planning for a bridal hopping. She need to get a Cheong Sam for her annual dinner. Wake up at 11.00 pm but when we get ready to go out from the house, is already 2.00 pm. Hahahahha...... Straight we head down to town and visited for few bridal shop.
When my first move, step into the bridal shop,  i had a feeling that I've never had before. The feeling is so warm and when i see every of the couple inside choosing the gown, the smile of their face is different. The wedding gown is so nice and the picture of the couple is so sweet. All the while i was thought that a marriage is just procedure to verify the status is to be husband and wife. Taking picture, wedding ceremony, having dinner is a troublesome matter.
Now i know, is more than that. When the day, the bride wearing the gown the feeling is not the same. Is not a troublesome matter. Is not just a status only. 
We been going few of the bridal shop and end up have to try those dinner dress because no much option of the Cheong Sam. Some are very nice but very expensive. The dress that she found it nice about RM600.00. Wearing for 1 night and have to return to back. End up, she decided to bought a dress at KL. We did not take any picture because they not allowed us to do  :( but she already bought a very beautiful dress at KL. 
After that we had our lunch + dinner at secret garden about 5PM. There is a very nice place to chill. To had our dinner, happy hour and chilling with wine there. 

Been trying to steal the picture from other website. Because i din take picture  :p

It look more nice when at night with the lights :)

the mushroom soup.... hmmm... quite nice. The soup is smooth but a little too much milk  ♥

Just a simple salmon salad but the taste is nice  :)

Cabonara pasta with mushroom....  I  ♥ cabonara very much.... and i know is FAT!!!!

Never take this picture but wanna intro few of the dishes there. This is what they call four season. 4 Season - A set of four types of sandwiches; Salmon with capers on toasted baguette, Salad sandwich of mixed greens stuffed in a pita pocket, English Sandwich with a squared sunny side up, and the Steak Sandwich between whole-grain bread.

At last but not least, after eat of coz we need a drink that can relax ...... I've been heading to a club at ipoh garden east called LAVISH. Is a new bar in Ipoh. 

My medicine to get sleep better  :)

L.O.V.E for me !!!^^

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.