Saturday, August 28, 2010

How can i stop all this feeling??

I don't know what I'm gonna do...I've spent days and nights without hurts me so bad to know you're not there...but you know I love you and you don't even care...I wish I could get you to see how I love looking in your eyes and your gentle touch...but I should move on...I know, but I just can't seem to let go.
I really think there's a reason that I like him so much.  Like something is telling me not to let him go.  Everytime I follow my leads me to him.  I mean...what other explanation is there?  Why is it that he is all I can think about?  Why is it that no matter how upset I am...I see him and I can't help but smile?  Why is it that when he smiles at me...I get that feeling in my stomach?  And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me...when he lied to me...and I hated him...why then did I still feel those same feelings??? 

Anyone could tell me to just give up and move on but I can't... they don't understand...they don't know him and they don't know what it's like to want him so much. If they understand, they will know why i can't let go~~~
"When you love someone, you are giving them the power to hurt you". Is it true???

It's so hard to show everyone that I'm doing fine without you when deep inside i'm not. It's hard because i have to smile when i really can't hold back my tears... cause as far i can see, you're doing fine without me....
How do you prepare a heart to be broken, or dreams to fall through?
How do you let go of a miracle, who means everything to you? How do you walk away, with tears in your eyes? Letting go isn't easy, i can only pray that i'll survive.
I'm not angry because we broke up, I'm sad because I can't let  you go.  I'm happy because of the memories we made, I'm sad because I can't stop reliving them in my mind.  I'm not angry at you for not loving me, I'm angry with me for still loving you.  I'm not angry that I lost you, I'm sad because I once had you.  I'm not angry that I can't have you, I'm sad because I know what I'm missing.  I'm not angry that you've moved on, I'm sad because I can't.  I'm not angry that you won't come back, I'm sad because I keep  hoping you will.  I'm not angry because I hate you and don't want to...I'm sad because I miss you and I love you.
You never realize how much you love someone until they're gone.  You never realize that...yes...once their love surrounded you but now...what do you have?  Memories.  Why does love hurt so much, when it's supposed to be such a good thing?  It's something that...yeah...I guess it can't be helped but...maybe it's harder for you than it is for someone else.  Faint smells of cologne...a song on the radio...a movie...or a single word...these are things that bring back those memories.  But, you can't hide from these things...because...they're there and no matter how hard you try to, they'll always be there.  Even when you have moved on to the future...and those things don't trigger the memories as much as before...they still do.  You can't forget someone that you've may want to...but you can't.  Love cannot be matter how hard we try...and how much we think it'll ease the will always be there...forever. 
I really wish that all this kind of feeling get away from me but how long will it take???


  1. JoJo.Yea,I cant let that person go as well.Each time I kononnya tot I've let him go,he appears AGAIN! sigh. The person who loves us most,is also the one who'll reap our heart as well.

  2. Haih.... He appears again in front of u but mine one NEVER!!!! Even he in front of me, we bcome stranger again.